Do you know the difference?

What is the difference between a real friend and a fake friend?

I am sure that not only myself has been in this situation before,debating weather or not you are able to trust your friends.

When it comes down to having friends to talk to I would say I don't have many. Which sucks but at the same time I think I'm better of not having many friends because that causes more drama. I can barley count on one hand how many of my "friends" I can trust.

There are not many friends that I am able to tell something to and them not run and start stuff with other people.

Because of drama I have come to realize the only friend I need is God. He is always there to listen to what I have to say,help let me know what he thinks,and leads me in the right way.

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Today Is The Day:)

Today is the day that I am going to change. I'm starting zumba with my friend,going to exercise more, and watching what I eat. I will loose weight and get back to what I was in high school...or close to it.

I went to the mall with my bff Jill and I did have to get a smaller pant size which made me very happy.I plan on going down a few more pant sizes. The next few weeks are going to be exciting the changes I make in my life. I will do this to make me a better person. Not only that but I will try and make an impact on the others around me that they need to exercise more.

Last night I was watching my strange sex addictions(it was the one thing that was on) and this girl was very large. Her boyfriend loved seeing her fat and she loved to be fat. She ate so much.! He said he got excited to see her each so much, which I think is disguising. It showed them eating breakfast and she ate a dozen eggs. How does someone do that? That was nothing compared to the other things she ate. What gets me is she is large and is hurting herself and likes doing it. He is pretty much killing her by feeding her so much. There are people that do not realize how big they are until its to late. Few people actually do something about it.

I know I'm not large but I'm not the size I want to be. I will make a change in my life.

Starting something and not finishing.

I told myself I was going to start eating better and working out more. Which I have started exercising more and have lost a pant size:) which makes me feel accomplished.

So from Monday out I am going to be watching what I eat ,exercising more and having fun. I have told myself I am going to start things that's I don't normally finish. This year I will make a change in my life. And it will start with my physical appearance. Then I will finish up with things that aren't that important. I am going to get a jar with pebbles and every day I work out I will put a pebble in the jar. This is something to look forward to. :) loving life.

People come and go.

Sorry I know its been a while since I have made my first one. I am going to start doing it every day starting on Monday. My past few days go by fast and they have been amazing.

I have recently decided with the help of a friend that I am going to start zumba. This girl and I go way back! She knows some of the worst and best things that have happened to me. We have had our fights and what not...the things friends go though and still stuck by each others side. There was a point in time when we didn't speak for a while and I know if I would of needed her she would of been there.<3Meg Ily.

I wish I had one person here that could help me the most. She is in a better place and ill get to see her one day. Sometimes I wonder how life would be if she was here:( I wonder if we would be close? I know on my wedding day she will be there but its not going to be the same!

Another person I wish was here is my fat friend. I still talk to her so much but I miss her. She better be here by the time I decided to get married. She will be beside me at the alter and making sure my big day is the best day of my life. I'm sure she will be sneaking candy cars in her bridesmaid dress,shoes and probably some in her hair when it is put up. Well Idk if it would be up because when you have a bowl cut its hard to do anything with it. (it looks like a bowl..poor thing her mom put a bowl on her head and cut her hair)...so maybe well put a clip in hers.

My mommy is amazing Idk what I'd do without her. Even though I haven't lived with her in 4 and a half years I still stay with her so much. She is such a great role model in my life. She raised two kids for a while and struggled but made sure we had the things we wanted and more. She knows everything that goes on and probably something that she shouldn't.

Some people do not realize that they do not have to have friends because they have God. He will always be there to listen and talk back with you. Most of the people that come in and out of your life are not ment to be there...to me anyways. When saying that I don't mean to be rude but if they go out its for a reason. Most of the time my reason is because they started something that wasn't necessary.

When speaking to God at night I know he will help me though my problems when no one else is there to listen. There have been times when I lay in bed and think about how they did it back in the day with Jesus. They didn't have cell phones,home phones,or computers. They followed the Bible and followed Jesus. That's why I go to him when I am down or needing advice. He always points me in the right direction. No matter if it is bad or good.

The reason why I have my close family and friends in my life are because of HIM!! He knows what is good for me and knows who will make me happy. I wanted to make this blog about my friends and family and tell them thanks for being there for me and helping me make myself the person I am today.

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*M.E.C
*A.H.B
*T.M.L
*M.M.E
...can't forget my one and only Fat Friend