Do you know the difference?

What is the difference between a real friend and a fake friend?

I am sure that not only myself has been in this situation before,debating weather or not you are able to trust your friends.

When it comes down to having friends to talk to I would say I don't have many. Which sucks but at the same time I think I'm better of not having many friends because that causes more drama. I can barley count on one hand how many of my "friends" I can trust.

There are not many friends that I am able to tell something to and them not run and start stuff with other people.

Because of drama I have come to realize the only friend I need is God. He is always there to listen to what I have to say,help let me know what he thinks,and leads me in the right way.

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Today Is The Day:)

Today is the day that I am going to change. I'm starting zumba with my friend,going to exercise more, and watching what I eat. I will loose weight and get back to what I was in high school...or close to it.

I went to the mall with my bff Jill and I did have to get a smaller pant size which made me very happy.I plan on going down a few more pant sizes. The next few weeks are going to be exciting the changes I make in my life. I will do this to make me a better person. Not only that but I will try and make an impact on the others around me that they need to exercise more.

Last night I was watching my strange sex addictions(it was the one thing that was on) and this girl was very large. Her boyfriend loved seeing her fat and she loved to be fat. She ate so much.! He said he got excited to see her each so much, which I think is disguising. It showed them eating breakfast and she ate a dozen eggs. How does someone do that? That was nothing compared to the other things she ate. What gets me is she is large and is hurting herself and likes doing it. He is pretty much killing her by feeding her so much. There are people that do not realize how big they are until its to late. Few people actually do something about it.

I know I'm not large but I'm not the size I want to be. I will make a change in my life.

Starting something and not finishing.

I told myself I was going to start eating better and working out more. Which I have started exercising more and have lost a pant size:) which makes me feel accomplished.

So from Monday out I am going to be watching what I eat ,exercising more and having fun. I have told myself I am going to start things that's I don't normally finish. This year I will make a change in my life. And it will start with my physical appearance. Then I will finish up with things that aren't that important. I am going to get a jar with pebbles and every day I work out I will put a pebble in the jar. This is something to look forward to. :) loving life.

People come and go.

Sorry I know its been a while since I have made my first one. I am going to start doing it every day starting on Monday. My past few days go by fast and they have been amazing.

I have recently decided with the help of a friend that I am going to start zumba. This girl and I go way back! She knows some of the worst and best things that have happened to me. We have had our fights and what not...the things friends go though and still stuck by each others side. There was a point in time when we didn't speak for a while and I know if I would of needed her she would of been there.<3Meg Ily.

I wish I had one person here that could help me the most. She is in a better place and ill get to see her one day. Sometimes I wonder how life would be if she was here:( I wonder if we would be close? I know on my wedding day she will be there but its not going to be the same!

Another person I wish was here is my fat friend. I still talk to her so much but I miss her. She better be here by the time I decided to get married. She will be beside me at the alter and making sure my big day is the best day of my life. I'm sure she will be sneaking candy cars in her bridesmaid dress,shoes and probably some in her hair when it is put up. Well Idk if it would be up because when you have a bowl cut its hard to do anything with it. (it looks like a bowl..poor thing her mom put a bowl on her head and cut her hair)...so maybe well put a clip in hers.

My mommy is amazing Idk what I'd do without her. Even though I haven't lived with her in 4 and a half years I still stay with her so much. She is such a great role model in my life. She raised two kids for a while and struggled but made sure we had the things we wanted and more. She knows everything that goes on and probably something that she shouldn't.

Some people do not realize that they do not have to have friends because they have God. He will always be there to listen and talk back with you. Most of the people that come in and out of your life are not ment to be there...to me anyways. When saying that I don't mean to be rude but if they go out its for a reason. Most of the time my reason is because they started something that wasn't necessary.

When speaking to God at night I know he will help me though my problems when no one else is there to listen. There have been times when I lay in bed and think about how they did it back in the day with Jesus. They didn't have cell phones,home phones,or computers. They followed the Bible and followed Jesus. That's why I go to him when I am down or needing advice. He always points me in the right direction. No matter if it is bad or good.

The reason why I have my close family and friends in my life are because of HIM!! He knows what is good for me and knows who will make me happy. I wanted to make this blog about my friends and family and tell them thanks for being there for me and helping me make myself the person I am today.

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*M.E.C
*A.H.B
*T.M.L
*M.M.E
...can't forget my one and only Fat Friend

All About QueenB SammyD.

Well since this is my first blog I thought I would make it all about me...which doesn't happen often.


I'm Samantha Lynn I am a happy go lucky person but here lately I have not been such a happy camper. There are a few things that I'm surround by that makes my frown turn upside down. It is not only the environment that I am in about 8 hours a day but also the people i am around as well.


When hanging out with people you have to make sure to pick the right ones from the wrong ones. I have seen so many people go down the wrong path, I don't want to go there. I see the outcome and it doesn't look like the life I want to live.I would like to see myself getting a great job in the near future, hopefully what I am going to school for. One time I saw someone that I was close with get started with the wrong crowd. He started doing bad things and hanging out with old friends. He started wasting money on drugs and not showing up at night when people were looking for him. The things that he done just hurt everyone around him. Things kept getting worse and one day he wanted money someone would not give it to him. The only way he would is if he told two people that he loved drugs more than he did them...lo and behold he did say it. That was the worst day of my life. From that day forward I have always made sure to not let something that bad happen to me again. Reasons like that is why I do not surround myself by things or people that are not close with me.


 In the fall I will be attending a local college to get my diploma in Medical Assisting. I used to attend University of Phoenix. I went to school to get my associated in Accounting. I attended this school for a little over a year and I will not do that again!! I ended up owing a little over 12,000 dollars to that place. Even though I have lived on my own for over four and a half years I still have to go off my mothers taxes because I'm not 25. I hope that one day I will be able to pay school off and not worry about it any more. Too bad that will not be anytime soon!


There are a few reasons why I started blogging. One because a certain girl has brought it to my attention that it will help things get off your chest when you do not have anyone to talk to. The second thing is to be able to let people know what I am thinking. Some people do not care and others do, if you do not care then don't read my stuff. Either way it is not going to hurt my feelings . I am the one that is doing it for me not for you :)


That is just like some people put on Facebook if you don't like my stuff don't read it. There are a lot of people that do not like me but those people do not know me either. If some people actually know me they would love me. I am a caring person and think of others before I think of myself. I know it is good to do this but sometimes you should put yourself first.


There are so many people that judge me , please do not judge me unless you know what my life has been like and what I have been through. Kind of like the saying I've made up... Don't talk about me unless you have walked in my shoes fallen a few times gotten up and fallen again then made the best out it.